the 3 min post..

rite nw.. am sittin at a stupid net centre in korba.. i wided away ma 57 min checkin ma mail n orkut.. n all i got is 3 min to write a post..its tuf to adjust to the worst technology after using a better technology.. a 256 internet line is nothin compared to a 1 mbps line.. n there was hailstones here in korba in the middle of summer..
opps times up...

the way i am

Life seems 2 fade away
Driftin further every day
Gettin lost within maself
Nothin matters no1 else

I have lost the will 2 live
Simply nothin more 2 give
dere is nothin more 4 me
i need the end 2 set me freeeeeeeeee

Things r not wat dey used 2 be
Missin 1 inside of me
Deathly lost, dis cant be real
Cannot stand dis hell I feel
Emptiness is fillin me
2 the point of agony
Growin darkness takin dawn
I was me, but now hes gone

No 1 but me can save myself, but its too late
Now I cant think, think why I should even try
Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, but still wanna stay..

unworthy lecturers..

how do u feel wen some1 who really doesnt know nythin abt a particular topic or is an amateur advises u to do dis n tht on the very topic.. i really get pissed off wen i feel the advisin party is not worthy at all.. even though dey mite be havin a little xp.. they think dey know more n keep on jabberin.. on ma part ive put ma full effort not 2 advise.. if u want to know abt sumthin.. learn it yourself.. well jus got a few words 4 all the advisers out dere..
as the ol saying goes.."it is better to keep ur mouth shut n let pple wonder wat u r.. rather than openin it n confirmin the fact tht u r a fool"

"Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home"
- home (chris daughtry)

the opposite..

happens to all of us.. we plan to do sumthin.. the exact opposite is eventually bound to happen.. ma frnds here gave it a fancy name called "paul's theorem" after the great paul joseph.. for more info give a search in orkut.. comin back.. dis tyme since am doin trainin at ntpc.. will have to stay here at raipur doin nothin 4 almost a week.. so wen ma xams were abt to end.. i wished tht the pracs end a little late than usual.. which i have neva wished b4.. n the exact opp happened.. forget abt finishin the prac on 7th.. they r finishin it on 5th itself.. i had a prac today.. on sunday.. 4days continuous jus after the theories.. goddamn.. luks lik vetti 4 almost 1 n a half week.. plannin 2 start dis ovrhyped one tree hill.. lets c..

"Conversion software version seven.0
Looking at life through the eyes of a tired hub
Eating seeds as a pastime activity
The toxicity of our city, of our city

Now, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder, disorder?
Now somewhere between the sacred silence
Sacred silence and sleep
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep
Disorder, disorder, disorder"
- toxicity(SOAD)

P.S- dunno wat the heck is conversion software version seven.o.. n i dont care abt the toxicity of chennai.. badly longin to go home..

lyrics..

didnt quite find nythin 2 write.. so back 2 lyrics baby.. below r the lyrics of 2 songs both of which r jus too simple yet powerful.. liked these 2 songs very much nw.. coz their vids released jus nw..

1st song

"My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?"

- If today was your last day (nickelback)

2nd song

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough

So I'll be waiting for the real thing
I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen

So I'll be holding my own breath right up 'til the end
Until that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And you know this feels too right
It's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you

So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end?
Is it that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know when it shows up
Make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
- gotta be somebody(nickelback)

P.S- am not a romantic at all.. atleast dont like to call maself a romantic.. but still like the 2nd song.. free..

competition...

ya.. we all know competition is healthy n stuff.. but noticed the most diff way of competition.. well ma xams got over jus today.. had communication as the last paper.. as long as ma dept is concerned.. u shd be knowin 2 pple.. prof.majumdar n prof. chakravarti.. none of dem is d hod.. i'll b frank abt these pple.. dey r 2 disillusioned idiots who try to take each n every damn sweat off ur body.. i couldnt find a better example of pple who find pleasures from other's sorrows.. they laugh wen u cry.. today while writin the paper.. chakravarti came to clear off any doubts n corrections in the paper.. he corrected few mistakes n den checked the paper for abt 5 min.. n den told with a bloody smirk on his face.. in ques 2 its binary n not finary.. it was as if.. we were tht dumb.. i felt like slappin him.. they were very happy tht they have given a difficult paper.. the sheer glances of students dumbstruck was pleasin to their eyes.. since both r an inseparable pair.. i guess tht they had some sort of competiton among demselves of who will be settin the tuffest paper or sumthin.. wateva.. the whole damn thing is over.. as soad put it.. fuck d system... especially the education system..

"Your empty walls...
Your empty walls...
Pretentious attention
Dismissive apprehension
Don't waste your time, on coffins today
When we decline, from the confines of our mind
Don't waste your time, on coffins today

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication"
- empty walls (serj tankian)